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Michelle
People with poor taste put me off
I have a fetish for anything with ribbons
My sense of humour may not be accepted by all
Don't piss me off, you will be sorry
I believe in fighting for your own happiness
May we all be happy, safe and healthy

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Its me, Stanley again! Muahaha Mic will be flying back tmr le, going to pick her up at night. Quite excited to see what she has bought for me.. lol..

Went out with JC classmates yest.. Met them at Holland V, Breko's for lunch.. The turnout was okay, better than what I expected. As usual, everyone was here only abt an hour after the designated meeting time.. Luckily I chose an earlier timing at 12 haha. We started chatting abt each other's current life; the girls are busy with Uni work, quite a no. of them will be gng for overseas attachment next yr, Alicia gng USA and Elizabeth gng Denmark. Peng Fei is currently working as an office boy and apparently he is leaving his chin unshaven and full of hair so as to let it grow into a goatie (did i spell correctly). The girls terrorised PF abt the hair on his chin throughout the whole day. Who wouldnt? haha. Lingyi told us about her interesting life in the showbiz world. I was like "WOW", I didnt know showbiz was like that haha.

After lunch, dessert was at Cold Rock, where they smashed toppings such as cookie and stuff with the ice cream onto a cold granite rock that was supposed to keep the ice cream unmelted and started mixing the mixture. Interesting, but the different flavours tasted the same afterwhich. Next was pool at Bukit Timah, but soon we ended up crowding ard a game machine playing PhotoHunt. They were so upbeat abt beating this Sophia guy who held the top score. Eventually, we did.

Went to some junior's house for their party in the evening. Saw Khai Nam, who lost a lot of weight. Ended up being sexuall harrassed by him when he started hugging me. And they turned me into a Godfather with KN's specs, ring and necklance. I got a picture of that haha. And Xuwei taught the rest how to play this new card game. The losers will have to drink 3-4 cups of water. I was bloated that night.

I enjoyed the day.

My Virgin Blog Post!!! Its Stanley here btw, not Mic. She in Perth shopping away now so I am here in her place to update the blog. Muahahaha.. Anyway, feeling lonely and bored now, yet there are so many things I can start working on actually. The list never ends. But being me, I just feel like lazying around =P

Christmas was surprisingly sian, basically just slept my way thru it. I realised my life is so empty without Po Pi. No friends to go out with. Hoping she can come back soon and fill my life with her presence. Sigh..

i can't help but keep sighing.. there are many things on my mind.. i am a very emotional person.. there are bound to be communication breakdowns at some point in time.. perhaps i am a very particular person.. i m very particular about the way things are done, games are played, ppl behaved.. and this trait of mine has often caused much trouble for me..

i get ppl showing me black face, i get misunderstood..

years ago, i had the habit of putting on a mask.. the mask protects me from the brutality of human nature, it covers up my true emotions and enables me to lead a more normal life.. then i thot i could take it off and show my true self to the world..

boy, was i wrong! now i think that there is a need to put on the mask again.. i dunno if's a habit, perhaps i have gotten used to my life without the mask, now i have to adapt to the thorns behind the mask.. i will try my best.. if it makes everyone happier.. i will try..

it's hard to find someone that will really listen to my woes and joys.. i am not sure if this person exists.. all i can do now is to talk to myself, mutter under my breath, seek solace in my favourite novels, find peace in my own room..

i am drained.. both in monetary terms and emotional terms.. pls do take my blog with a pinch of salt.. that way, it will taste better.. (haha! just kidding lah)

stories are written everyday.. i am happy that someone will be reading my story.. maybe my story will help someone be a stronger person.. perhaps after reading my story, it will shed some light on your own problems..

I am quite tired recently..

it's definitely no easy feat to juggle family, bf and friends all at the same time.. stan and i have been trying to accomodate each other's schedule.. i dunno who's busier.. but the plans are constantly changing and it's really hard for me to catch up with him.. sigh..

i will be going to perth soon.. i just wanna spend more time with him.. i know of his many family plans.. i know he has a big family and he has to accomodate both me and his family at the same time.. it's not easy.. he said he will miss me badly when i m in perth, not beside him.. i think not, i think it's a good chance for him to keep his mother company.. go out with his frens, act like he's single all over again..

maybe this short period of separation will do both of us good.. makes me realise how impt he is to me.. many a times, i dun have a chance to talk to him on the phone.. his mom occupies him.. his family.. sigh..

and i recently quarrelled with my supposedly bestest fren.. i din wanna go out with her, and she said this is the second time i pang seh her.. she also pang seh me a lot of times.. i know she's pissed.. being strong-headed, neither of us will be willing to concede defeat first.. heck le.. give her time to cool down.. i thot she ought to be more understanding.. obviously not.. we will talk again after i come back from perth..

My first random post.. Have been tryin to view my own post for so long.. hope this one works out.. haha , <$ <$Xanga_Posts$>

06. Dec. 2007

Spent the whole day rotting away. Hope to accomplish something later. Haven eaten lunch. Don't feel hungry at all. What's happening to me?

Itchy throats are unbearable