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Michelle
People with poor taste put me off
I have a fetish for anything with ribbons
My sense of humour may not be accepted by all
Don't piss me off, you will be sorry
I believe in fighting for your own happiness
May we all be happy, safe and healthy

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hiya all..

my life has been monotonous.. seriously, i think life sucks to the core.. nothing i do is right, everyday i just live one day by one day.. a few ups, a few downs.. well, actually, make that no ups at all..

i sorta quarelled with one of my close frens yesterday.. no one to share this kinda woes with me.. (gettin very emo eh?) have been frens for 6,7 years.. i guess yesterday was the first argument we had.. what kind of person am i turning into? why am i always picking fights with ppl? why do i keep giving a sian face to others? why am i like this? why why why??

yesterday i showed stan a sian face.. i guess i was feelin sian after i quarrelled with my fren. i wanted so much to tell him about this, but when i saw him, i guess i just directed my anger at him. i admit that this is my fault. we were supposed to go to Al Ameen (one of the Malay stores opp Beauty World) for lunch. He had said before that he hasn't ate prata in a long time, so i suggested going there. So when he was about to reach my house, he sms me to ask me to change and get ready. I was thinking, "it's just Al Ameen, what's there to change? are we going another place after lunch?" nevertheless, i still changed. but i hate to wear nicely to coffeeshops coz i see no point in it. so i ended up wearing a top and denim skirt to Al Ameen and after lunch we headed back to my place.

i should have just worn my fbt shorts and tee.. when i asked him why he ask me to change, he said that he was just asking me if i wanna change and informed me that he was reaching soon. well, it definitely din sound that way to me.. well, i guess you can say that i am a very particular person..

i am most definitely not happy right now.. very frustrated at my own actions.. how i wish i can keep my hp away and not msg anyone or receive any msg from anyone.. i hate myself.. sometimes it's so much easier to write about my own emotions than to tell anyone.. i have gotta to keep myself busy.. or i will just let my mind wander and get angry with stan.. who will then in turn get angry with me..

can anyone tell me how to divert my anger away from ppl and just self-inflict it on myself? i dun wanna show a black face to stan.. but i can't help it.. so i need some way to control my own emotions.. shall i keep everything to myself? wad's becoming of me?