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Michelle
People with poor taste put me off
I have a fetish for anything with ribbons
My sense of humour may not be accepted by all
Don't piss me off, you will be sorry
I believe in fighting for your own happiness
May we all be happy, safe and healthy

Stanfordgirls
Bambyee-Love
YanFen
Zhanyi
Yi Hui
Jun Jie
Alps
Ee Fun
Shuyi
Jamie
Soon Hui

Love is...

1. sweet and tender when all goes well.
2. bitter and painful when you start arguing.
3. all about giving in the initial stages.
4. starts to turn sour when you do the wrong things.
5. never smooth-sailing.
6. about forgive and forget in the long run.
7. something that makes you sob and laugh at the same time.
8. like poison, giving you a slow and painful death.
9. so troublesome and tiring.
10. nothing unless you place a lot of emphasis on it.

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i tried my best..
i put in a lot of efforts..
it may not be visible to you..
in the end, i gave up..

who's there for me..
no one, except my blanket and pillows..
i cry into them, hoping no one else would know..
i wipe away my tears painfully..

i try to find someone to talk to..
but no one is free..
i tried to study..
but my mind's not in it..

now i plaster a smile on my face..
in hope that my red eyes won't show..
i throw away the tissues..
and hopefully the pain too..

later i will go there for one last time..
recap all the happy and sad times..
and then..
leave the memories behind..

the feeling is getting stronger.. the feeling of not having friends' support is very real and scary.. yihui and i have discussed this before. Our online shops are growing at a negligible rate and we have come to the conclusion that our so-called friends aren't supportive.. even if they didn't show their support by purchasing sth from us, they could have at least help us spread the word.. i m not sure how many frens are doing this for us.. it's really saddening..

the initial start-up of a business through friends' support and word of mouth is very important. yet these 2 factors are lacking. it dawned upon me that i may have many friends, but seriously, how many are the true friends when you need them? you may call yourself my close/good/best friends, but the feeling sucks when you have no one to turn to. is this karma? am i a very bad friend to begin with?

it's all a very cruel world out there, they talk to you when they need your help, they turn you away and brush you aside when you are of no use to them. survival of the fittest, how brutally true.. this thought sends a shiver down my spine, it's so cold suddenly..

the sun may be shining outside my window, but the atmosphere is so cold and selfish.. it's time for me to learn the ropes of surviving in this unfeeling world.. everyone does things for a reason, to their benefit, for their own good.. if you are not useful to me, you aren't my friend..

many have asked me this question, "why are your blog posts always so sad?" my answer will always be, "there's nothing to be happy about"

how many of you actually read my blog? ok, you may be reading, but do you ever leave a tag behind to show concern? do you ever sms or email me to ask how i am? i update once in a while, if i m gone one day, you guys will just think that i m not updating, not that sth happened to me.

studies have shown that bottling up too much bad emotions within yourself leads to cancer and other illnesses. i think i will get it someday. my stomach's in a constant state of misery, are the bad emotions coming together to stage a fight against me?

one day i will leave everything behind, all the tears and anger, hugs and kisses, pain and loneliness. i will go to somewhere where emotions dun exist.